My Trustfall Moment: What It Feels Like to Step Into Courage

After 25 years of service, I find myself standing at the edge of something new.

Yesterday, I left the clothing stores for the last time—no more kit on my docs, no more gear to turn in. For those that wear the uniform, you know what a huge moment this is. I wasn’t actually prepared for how I felt as I left clothing stores – it was unceremonious, and yet deeply symbolic. It marked the beginning of the end of my time in uniform with the Canadian Armed Forces.

This upcoming week will be my last week wearing the uniform I’ve worn for 25 years. Something that to me, reflects the incredible experiences, challenges, growth, and deep camaraderie that my fellow military colleagues can truly understand. Over the years, I’ve had the privilege to serve alongside some of the most inspiring, dedicated people I’ve ever known.

I’ve learned more than I could have imagined and will carry those lessons with me into the next chapter.

The rhythm of military life, the structure, the sense of purpose—it’s hard to let go. And for those who know me, you know I love P!nk and her song Trustfall has been playing on repeat lately. Because that’s exactly what this is—trusting in myself outside the uniform and the institution, and trusting that I know the next right step, even when I can’t see the landing.

To those who have walked this journey with me—thank you. There is a bond that never fades, even when the uniform comes off because “we will all go down together”. IYKYK.

Here’s to the next adventure!